ok ... so i dont really know what is going on anymore but trust me when i say this, i enjoyed every single moment of it.

i just want it to be how it was. it felt so good just being ... touched. i swear to god, everything else didnt matter at that time, nothing at all.

but fantasies aside, reality always checks you back in. i was wrong.

all i can do is have faith which i never believed in until recently.
the scientist from coldplay is fantastic to listen to now.

i really miss that. honestly from the bottom of my heart. it keeps replaying in my head over and over again. sigh.
rick.

*edit
calling sookie earlier didnt even help at all. i dont know. when i call her, i get to excited but its just the things that she talks about. i just dont get it. eventhough she is a year older, doesnt mean she is mentally mature as well now does it? i just cant take it anymore.
seriously, there are too many things going on in my head now. ALOT of things.
especially "that".

i miss you.